So, determined to continue with Saturday Smiles – all the things that have made me happy throughout the week, a chance to remember all the positives and not the negatives…
I am putting out of my head the amount of times I was asked this week “when do you fly home?” only to have to reply that, no I’m not going home, I can’t afford it, I’ll be spending my holiday here on my own, yes that will be fun won’t it, relaxing, sure. Please stop asking now.
And remembering that we FINALLY broke up for the Easter break this week! After “only” 11 weeks in school (exhausted doesn’t come close), I have an entire week off!
I am ignoring the fact that I have eaten like a pig all week and not run since Monday because the closer the end of term got, the harder getting to the end of the day without mountains of sugar and fat seemed to be.
And remembering that Sara in my class brought me Cadburys on Tuesday (mmm, thanks Sara!)…
…to which Diego called across the room “Oh, Miss Bell-iiisssss – you’re going to get fat!”. And that L mentioned in response to this story that “You could never get fat, unless you drank like an entire bath of chocolate.” And that today I went for a run and resisted the urge to order a big greasy pizza to celebrate the start of the holidays and cooked healthy(-ish) bacon, leek, mushroom and courgette pasta instead.
I am not seeing the fact that my laptop chose the first night of my holidays to die a final and mid-episode death as a negative.
I’m thinking of all the people without one and feeling lucky that I still have Cesar’s computer to use for work, job applications (yes, I’m still plodding through them! Still no interviews, but a few closing dates coming up this week and hopefully some more jobs being advertised too, so keep everything crossed!) and general internet-procrastination. Being the super strong lady that I am (haha!) I did some rearranging so that now I can see the big computer from the sofa (albeit at a slightly weird angle). I’m also smiling because this didn’t go disastrously wrong, as it possibly should have…not only super strong, but super lazy, I left everything (computer, phone, printer, art supplies, beer…) on the desk as I moved it. Bearing in mind it’s not actually attached to the legs, this came dangerously close to everything tumbling off. But it didn’t, so huge relieved smile
From this… To this…
I am trying not to think about all the applications I’m writing and how hard I find them and what will happen if I don’t get any of them and what I’m supposed to write and how to make myself sound amazingly awesome enough to get an interview.
And thanking the lovely Jim for letting me see his CV so I could get a clue (and also for bringing me a kinder egg from the shop).
I’m not looking at anyone’s facebook status if they live in the UK, because they all have snow to play in again. And I love snow.
Instead, I’m feeling happy to see the sunshine this week (for the most part) and hoping it stays out.
I’m not worrying about the fact that I haven’t heard from L since Tuesday.
I’m enjoying the fact that we had a fun evening, giggled lots and trying to trust in the fact that I know he’ll be round this week at some point.
I’m not feeling at all bitter towards the school that didn’t hire one of my loveliest, bestest friends (mostly because it turned out afterwards that the school didn’t sound too great anyway).
Instead I’m loving her HEAPS for messaging to check in on me today (she knows me so well) and for texting to say she’s bought me an awesome present! Yay! And feeling grateful that her interview did at least get me feeling arty and inspired to make her a card (which I’m gutted hasn’t photographed properly) which in turn has inspired some other little projects (just got to get motivated to DO them now!)
You can’t really tell, because it’s gone a bit blurry in the pic, but all the text was carefully selected for colour and what it says…I lost a foot at one point, nightmare crawling round the floor looking for that!)
I am not thinking about the fact that I felt like the worst teacher in the world for a lot of this week (mostly because my children still can’t get ‘it’s’ and ‘is’ or questions correct – I am being way harsh on myself, since they’re all Spanish, but that’s why I’m ignoring it).
I am thinking about our cinema afternoon on Friday and how massively excited they all were about it! I promised them at the start of the week I’d bring popcorn and use our leftover bottles of (unopened) milk to make chocolate milk. I made them remind me all day on Thursday so I wouldn’t forget to go and buy it, and came in on Friday morning to a chorus of “did you buy the popcorn?” “did you forget it?”…or more accurately “you buy the popcorn?” “you remember to get the popcorn?” etc. and then spent Friday afternoon with a class of children getting more and more exciting and telling some potential parents who were looking round that they were just making a sign to tell everyone no-one could come in (luckily they did then explain it as because they didn’t want anyone to disturb them during their cinema time!) and finished my Spring term off with 25 children sat on chairs on the carpet (set out “just like a real cinema!!”) drinking chocolate milk, eating popcorn and watching Willy Wonka (the original). Good times.
Other things that made me smile this week…
…the guy carrying his daughter up the road to nursery, blowing raspberries at her and pretending to eat her all up…
…the child I tutor finally bringing in the money from his mum, allowing me to survive this week before payday—
…my friend Jenny texting to ask if I’d be a witness at her wedding (and then staying on the phone forever with me while I melted down a bit about life and men and suchlike. Ahem.)…
….30 Rock (thank you Katie – I totally heart Liz Lemon) and Parenthood (thank you Heather, I am still totally addicted to this show)….
…having a medical and being told that my eyes and heart rate aare AMAZING-GOOD! Being healthy is over-looked until we’re not sometimes, I’m smiling to be fit and healthy and well.
Hope you are all fit and well and smiling too. What’s been happy-ning (god, I just thought of that – so cheesy, I think I’ve been watching a little *too much* 30 Rock…but it’s staying!) with you?